“People cry, not because they are weak, but because they’ve been strong too long.”
When I was younger, I thought crying was something that you had to hide, so as time passed I’d keep those tears in, wrapped up in a little package inside thinking that if I don’t acknowledge them, the feelings that go with them don’t exist. What started out as a little collection of packages all neat and tidy inside me, containing every tear I hadn’t shed, ended up being a weight so heavy in me that I could barely stand. I ignored the pain, and just kept shoving the tears a little bit deeper, and then tried to keep standing and showing no one the weight that was within me. Over time it became harder and harder to find the room to keep it all inside and as things slowly fell apart I was being pulled down in a spiral that I thought would never end. And as the bottom came up to greet me, I hoped to just drift away and never have to see the light of day again. The burden of unshed tears was so great, that life wasn’t worth living. I learned that rock bottom is where I needed to be to be able to start to live again. As I opened every package of tears and let them out, I started to feel lighter, each day crying for a pain that had been hidden for so long. Once it started it was like I couldn’t stop, and feeling a lifetime worth of pain seemed endless, but the tears were the cleansing that I so needed to face all that I’d ignored for so many years. They’ve slowly dried up, but not entirely, I’ll never go without facing each emotion I need to and dealing with it. So, everyone around me knows, when I’m crying it just means that I’m alive and well, it’s when I stop is when I’ll worry. But for now, I only cry when I’m sad, happy, angry, grateful, startled, afraid, anxious, annoyed, or any other emotion that comes along! Just kidding, but it does feel that ways sometimes. 😀
I’m wearing my favourite tattoo from Pimp My Sh!t here, and I want to let everyone know that PMS is in transition to an all new brand called Wild Roots. I’m excited to see what the future holds, with Wild Roots specializing in unisex tattoos, cosmetics, and a new line of mesh accessories coming in the near future. Past PMS releases will be available on the second floor of the new store and also on Market Place, so you’re not out of luck in getting past releases. This one I’m wearing is called ‘In the Darkness’ and it’s combination of trees and birds are what I love. It’s compatible with all Omega mesh bodies and comes in three ink tones.
I’m in my adorable ‘Cecilia Lingerie, noir’ from /erratic/ here. I’m wearing the brassiere and thong this time, but the set also includes ouvert panties, shelf brassiere, suspender, and stockings compatible with the ‘Lara’ mesh body from Maitreya and the SLink mesh feet. All items can be purchased separately, also.
The ‘Rose Heart’ necklace is from Maxi Gossamer Jewellery. It comes with gold or silver options along with short(seen here) and long. There is also a pretty set of earrings included.
The ‘YONAGA, blacks pack’ hair is from Argrace.
The lovely ‘Raine’ skin in ‘miel’ tone will be available on November 15 at Appliquè, from Avada. The skin looks lovely on the ‘Lilo’ bento mesh head from Catwa and the ‘Lara’ mesh body from Maitreya. I’ve added a touch of eye shadow from the ‘Smokey Eye Shadow’ pack from Izzie’s.
The is the ‘Catching Teardrops’ pose from Del May.