she is strong, but not
in the ways most people
think. she loves more
than she’ll ever get
back and she knows it.
she loves anyway.
I love the words of JmStorm, some of them seem as if he could be talking about me, and this is one of them. I can’t compare myself with anyone else, because I am me and only me, and I don’t know what’s in other’s hearts or minds, but I do know that I I feel strongly, regardless of the emotion. When I feel an emotion, my mind plays no part in it, I don’t think about it, it’s my body taking in that feeling and reacting to it in ways that can completely overtake me. When I’m angry, it’s all consuming, so much so that my mind spins and swirls into confusion and there’s nothing I can do or say to convey the strength of that anger. Sadness comes over me like a tidal wave and I’m helpless to save myself from it, thankfully the wave can recede as fast as it peaks and I can then feel the relief of living again. I feel shame about something that happened 20 years ago as strongly as the day it happened, so I can’t dwell on the past. And when I give myself over to love, it’s a love that has no limits, and though I’ve truly died inside because of it, I refuse to give up and not love again. The joys of what it brings is far greater than the pain of losing it, or so I’m told.
I’ve got a simple look today, just a swimsuit and a tattoo! There’s a part of me that wants to just wear the tattoo without anything else and embrace my nakedness, but it’s just not in me to do that, so today it’s a swimsuit. The tattoo though, is a fairly new release from Metamorphoses Tattoo called ‘Edge‘. I’ve always been quite taken with the tribal tattoo look, and this one kind of speaks to me. The bold shapes are tempered by the soft lines that cover the body but are intricately linked by drawing the eye in all directions. It’s compatible with pretty much any mesh body there is plus the classic avatar, this is on the ‘Lara’ mesh body from Maitreya.
The ‘Eunice’ bikini is from /erratic/ and it’s one of my favourites. I like that it’s got good coverage yet is sexy as all get out, and it’s detailing isn’t too girly.
The ‘Boys & Girls 78’ hair, from the darks pack, is from DURA Hair.
As always, I’m wearing the ‘Raine’ skin in ‘miel’ tone from Avada on the ‘Lilo’ bento head from Catwa.