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My Immortal

My Immortal

I’m so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
‘Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won’t leave me alone

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I’m bound by the life you left behind
Your face, it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice, it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you’re gone
But though you’re still with me
I’ve been alone all along

When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears
When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
All of me… me… me…

My Immortal‘ ~Evanescence~

What do you notice when you see me, my lips may curl into a smile but my eyes don’t shine. Do you see that? Do you hear my laughter, but not notice the worry lines that crease my face? You might make note that I always ‘seem’ happy, but do you notice my silence when no one’s looking at me? Everyone wears a mask, or two…….and it’s only certain people that want to know the person inside that will see these things and know that what’s on the surface isn’t all that it appears to be. Through my life I’ve always had a mask ready to wear when talking with anyone. To most people I was the joker….always with a joke handy and a good natured insult for anyone I liked, but what no one knew was how exhausting it’s always been. I could wear that mask for as long as I needed to, but when I was finally alone I’d be drained mentally and emotionally and I’d plummet down into the depths minutes after smiling and saying goodbye. So, when people I’ve know for years find out I’ve struggled with depression all my life, they don’t believe it. How can someone seem so happy and full of life be depressed? Easy…..people pick up that mask…wear it for as long as they need to……then go back to their reality when alone. It’s something that I never told anyone, and generally no one ever noticed, but once every now and then someone comes along that can see through the mask…and when that happens it’s like finding the kindred spirit that’s been missing from a your life!

So, it’s October, and Thanksgiving is this weekend for us Canadians……not a good time to be a turkey! But, it’s also just a few weeks til Halloween. It’s not my favourite time of year, I hate being scared and I see nothing exciting about any of it…….so needless to say I don’t have kids stopping in for candy. But, there are some really cool things that are created in the spirit of the occasion. Sandowl of Wild Roots has created 3 incredible face tattoos and they are stunning! I’m wearing the ‘Cracked Skull Tattoo’ here and it’s available now at The Darkness Event. It’s highly detailed and creepily gorgeous with 3 ink tones included and compatible with the Catwa and Lelutka heads plus any mesh head that’s Omega driven. I could wear a layer of eye shadow at the same time easily so you’re not limited in any way. The Darkness Evet runs until the end of the month.

I know everything else in the picture isn’t clearly visible, but I’m wearing the ‘Fleeting’ hair from Stealthic and the ‘Payton Gown’ from *Just BECAUSE*.

One good thing about it being October is that the Pose Fair is underway and there’s literally tons of poses available for anyone and everyone! I’m using the ‘Apocalypse Sunrise 01’ pose from Bauhaus Movement. I have to admit to having stood on the Bauhaus Movement pose stands for a long time, but damn….they were all sooo good! You can purchase a fatpack of each set or you can purchase the poses separately, you’re choice! There’s lots of gifts available for Pose Fair group members(free to join) and there’s something for everyone there! The Pose Fair runs til the end of the month.

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