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The Gift

The Gift

Hold me now I need to feel relief
Like I never wanted anything
I suppose I’ll let this go and find a reason I’ll hold on to
I’m so ashamed of defeat
And I’m out of reason to believe in me
I’m out of trying to get by

I’m so afraid of the gift you give me
I don’t belong here and I’m not well
I’m so ashamed of the lie I’m living
Right on the wrong side of it all

I can’t face myself when I wake up
And look inside a mirror
I’m so ashamed of that thing
I suppose I’ll let it go
Until I have something more to say for me
I’m so afraid of defeat
And I’m out of reason to believe in me
I’m out of trying to defy

I’m so afraid of the gift you give me
I don’t belong here and I’m not well
I’m so ashamed of the lie I’m living
Right on the wrong side of it all

Hold me now I need to feel complete
Like I matter to the one I need

I’m so afraid of the gift you give me
I don’t belong here and I’m not well
I’m so ashamed of the lie I’m living
Right on the wrong side of it all

Now I’m ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of this
Now I’m so ashamed of me
I am so ashamed of me…

The Gift‘ ~Seether~

I’ve been feeling at a loss for words recently, and instead of saying I have no words…..I just say nothing at all. I’m pretty sure no one exactly misses hearing from me, but over my years of doing this my main format has changed very little. I always like to share a small piece of myself, but I also want to be saying something that’s not just drivel, or blather as my Mum would say. So the dilemma is do I struggle with writing something and only post a picture when I have something to say……..or do I post my pictures as I make them, and worry less about writing something, it’s something I’ve struggled with over the 5 years I’ve been doing this. I think I should worry less about it and just let it happen……..and as I continue to take up my little spot in this world I’ll continue to just ‘be’!

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