I tried it once before but I didn’t get too far
I felt a lot of pain but it didn’t stop my heart
And all I really wanted was someone to give a little f*ck
But I waited there forever and nobody even looked up
I tried it once before and I think I might’ve messed up
I struggled with the veins and I guess I didn’t bleed enough
But maybe I’m alive ’cause I didn’t really wanna die
But nothing very special ever happens in my life
Take the blade away from me
I am a freak, I am afraid that
All the blood escaping me won’t end the pain
And I’ll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
I died to be the white ghost
Of the man that I was meant to be
I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut
I thought about my friends and the way I didn’t give enough
And I should’ve told my mother ‘mom, I love you’ like a good son
But this life is overwhelming and I’m ready for the next one
Take the blade away from me
I am a freak, I am afraid that
All the blood escaping me won’t end the pain
And I’ll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
I died to be the white ghost
Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah
I tried it once again and I think I might black out
I should’ve left a letter but I had nothing to write about
My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up
The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so f*cked
Take the blade away from me
I am a freak, I am afraid that
All the blood escaping me won’t end the pain
And I’ll be haunting all the lives that cared for me
I died to be the white ghost
Of the man that I was meant to be
I tried it once again and I think I went too far
The man that I was meant to be
I cut a little deeper and the pressure stopped my heart
The man that I was meant to be
I could’ve told my mother that I love her, I’m a bad son
This life is overwhelming and I’m ready for the next one
‘Ghost‘ ~Badflower~
I know this is a really disturbing song on a topic that so many people want to think doesn’t exist, but mental health is something that everyone needs to be aware of, not just your own but of the people close to you. These are very troubling times for the world and now more than ever it’s important to be aware of how you’re feeling emotionally. For myself, with a lifetime of mental health struggles, I’m very aware of how I’m feeling and know when my anxiety becomes unmanageable and I start to not want to face each day it’s time to adjust what’s around me. It usually stems from taking in too much world news………I have to balance on the thin line between being aware of what’s going on and becoming too caught up in it. As an empath, I take on the emotions and energy around me easily and it’s a very slippery slope downhill when I feel the negativity, fear, frustration, and hopelessness that’s so prevalent today. So, on this Sunday morning in May I breathe deep……and make my world a little bit smaller……..the grass is growing and the trees are leafing…….most of the birds have returned from their winter vacations and the sun is shining….it doesn’t get better than this!
I’m using a pose from the free gift from SAPA Poses at The Pose Fair Market. The Pose Fair group is free to join and every store has a free gift out for you.
The ‘Mai Per Caso’ statue is from Cammino e Vivo Capovolto.
