What Hurts the Most

What Hurts the Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that is not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away

And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ it
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still harder, getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away

And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away

What Hurts the Most‘ ~Aaron Lewis~ written by Jeffrey Steele

Ok, so this has been a week of songs, and I have to say I’ve enjoyed matching a song to my mood and picture for each post. I’d like to continue to do that, but I’ll also continue writing, some days more than others. Oh, I still have thoughts and opinions, but there are times that I find it hard to put more than 3 words together and still make sense, so having a song do some of my talking for me is really quite a relief, but you guys have to promise to click on the link to the song and listen, because I have great taste in music(I think I do, anyway), and each song I pick is more than just a song. It represents something in me, whether now or in the past, it’s chosen for a reason. Part of me feels like I’m letting my readers down by adding a song to my posts, and I have no idea why I feel that way so strongly. I know no one expects me to have something creative and exciting to say every time, the people I know in real life sure as heck don’t expect much more from me most days than for me to nod and grunt a hello in their general direction, then be quiet for an hour while I struggle with the reality of having to be social. So, today enjoy Aaron Lewis with a tearjerker of a song, and oh….btw……just a warning…..if you’re expecting happy shiny songs……yea….you may be disappointed….rarely am I a happy and shiny type of person. 🙂

So, there’s a week left int he inaugural round of the ILLUMINATE event, so with that in mind get down there to have a look at the offerings from some of the grids most creative and imaginative home and decor stores. Galland Homes is there with the ‘Cape Hatteras Bedroom’ items. They’re all sold separately and the set includes the bookcase, small side table, and slip cover chair, which all goes perfectly with the ‘Cape Hatteras’ bed that’s available at the main store. The table, dresser and book case come in two colours to choose from and the slip cover chair has ten male and female sitting animations. The ILLUMINATE event runs until April 13.

I’ve added some home decor to make this a cozy little bedroom. The books in the bookcase are from Dutchie, as is the ‘Dutch Photo Collage’ on the wall to the left of the bookcase.

The art above the bed is ‘Marrakech’ in pastel by Silas Merlin.

The ‘Table Lamp’ on the side table on the right is from C L A Vv.

The books to the left of the chair is from Apple Fall and the books to the right are a group gift from Nutmeg.

The plant in the foreground is from Dust Bunny and the Rug is from Apt B.

I’m in one of the rooms of the ‘Tuscany Loft’ from DaD Designs. It’s one of my favourite skyboxes.

Santa’s Hut

Santa's Hidey-Hole

I always dreamed of the decadent comforts that could be had in ones very own hidey-hole. That little place to crawl into when I need to escape reality for awhile. It would be all warm and cozy with lots of blankets and pillows, maybe a little wood stove to heat some milk for hot chocolate. I’d have a nice collection of books, about a wide variety of things, just in case the book I’m reading at the time doesn’t thrill me. I think I’d only wear pajamas in there, not a nightie but the pants and top men’s type pajamas with slippers….no….big wooly socks. I’d have my phone with me, but only reply to the ones I want to, which on most days is very few, so this wouldn’t be anything new. The phone would also be good to have with me in case I need to call someone to bring me something to make my little retreat a bit more comfortable, like cookies or maybe a slice of brownie, or two. I think it would also be nice to have a cat with me, for a little company. They’re not demanding like a dog, and they don’t mind if I ignore them, but it would be comforting to have a little bit of company. Oh, and of course I’d only go to this retreat in the winter, I don’t normally want a wood stove and hot chocolate on a hot summer day. At least thinking about this in December still leaves me lots of time to get something built before spring, because up here, getting to spring is a long term goal, it’s not in the near future, that’s for sure!

I’d like to thank Robert Galland of Galland Homes for building this little hut for Santa, because if it wasn’t for him, I probably wouldn’t be posting any festive pictures this year. Still not in the mood, sorry all! But, I created a little area for Santa to retreat to when he has some time before the big day, or maybe on Boxing Day. I put a little wood stove in there along with a big comfy chair and a big steaming mug of hot chocolate for his enjoyment. Santa’s Hut has a 5X5m footprint and a land impact of 11, so it fits pretty much anywhere. It’s available now until December 25 at the Paying It Forward Event, which is an event based on the idea of generosity and giving, so each item there has nocopy/transfer permissions so you can give them as gifts to anyone you care to. I recommend you join the Paying It Forward group so you can pick up the numerous gifts from a lot of seriously talented designers. I love this idea, it makes it easy to spoil the ones closest to you.

And as for the rest of this little scene, well gachas play a fairly large part in it. I need some kind of reason to play gacha like I do! 😛 So, Mesh India is at the current round of Cosmopolitan with the ‘Let It Snow Winter Decor gacha 2’, and the stump with axe and separate stumps are from that one. There’s another fantastic winter gacha set at the MI main store, if you’re interested.

The trees on either side of the hut and the toboggan, which is part of the snowy planks walk way are all part of the ‘Midwinter Magic’ gacha set from DEL-ka AEDILIS. They specialize in role play buildings and furniture and have a bunch of other gachas to play at the main store.

The snowy ground, snowy meadow and snowy grasses are all from a mega snowy pack I got from KIDD Grass awhile back.

The ‘Fall Heritage Woodburner’ and the ‘Magnolia Wreath’ are both from Apple Fall.

Wake Me Up

Wake Me Up

How can you see into my eyes like open doors?
Leading you down into my core where I’ve become so numb
Without a soul my spirit’s sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I’ve become

Now that I know what I’m without
You can’t just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I’ve become

Bring me to life
(I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside)
Bring me to life

Frozen inside without your touch
Without your love, darling
Only you are the life among the dead

All this time I can’t believe I couldn’t see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul
Don’t let me die here
There must be something more
Bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can’t wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I’ve become

Bring me to life
(I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside)
Bring me to life

Bring Me To Life ~Evanescence, feat. Paul McCoy~

Please, visit the link and enjoy this song, it’s one of my favourites!

The first thing I want to talk about is the newest release from Galland Homes! This is the ‘Laurel Ridge Pavilion’ and the package includes the pavilion itself(16 LI), a planter, and some random firewood, plus it includes a snow roof, to make your winter landscaping look complete. There’s soft fire sounds, which is on/off on touch, to make it an intimate little area to spend time with your special someone, or all by yourself if you need that quiet space to recharge. The pavilion is available now at the ULTRA Event, which runs until December 8. For more pictures and information on this release check out Galland Homes on flickr.

I’m sitting on the ‘Cozy Corner’ from Mudhoney which is part of the November round of Deco(c)rate. It’s texture change with five colours, has a LI of 2, and includes 26 single, 14 PG couples, and 8 parent/child animations.

The ‘Transistor Radio TR-2A’ is from 7 Emporium and should be at the main store soon, if not already.

The ‘Salford Tray’, which has croissants and hot chocolate for two, is from the ‘Salford Set’ from Raindale. Also from Raindale is the ‘Forestholm cusions’.

The ‘I Love You Bouquet’ is from Boudoir.

The ‘Apple Fall & An Lar Toile Chair’ is from a gacha available at the Apple Fall main store.

The snowy meadow and berry thicket are from Kidd Landscapes.

My look all starts with the ‘Raine’ skin in ‘miel’ tone from Avada, and available now at Appliquè, on the ‘Lilo’ bento head from Catwa and the ‘Lara’ mesh body from Maitreya. I’m wearing the ‘SAYAKA’ hair from Argrace and the ‘Cecilia thong and brassiere, in ivory, from /erratic/.

I’m using the ‘Thought Flood’ pose from Del May.

Every Picture Tells a Story

Every Picture Tells a Story

It’s true! I look at my own pictures from times past and I can remember everything about when it was taken. I can remember the events on that day, how the picture came to be, the weather and my mood. But, looking at someone else’s pictures it’s all about trying to read the people in the picture, and try to tell the tale! Sometimes a person doesn’t know the whole story until they see themselves in the photo! But others would just be guessing what was going on. What am I thinking as I sit on the bed here? Am I daydreaming? Worried about something? Or thinking of a busy day tomorrow? Or, I could just have a bad case of gas and can’t find a comfortable position!! 🙂

In my pictures here in the lovely Framed Photos from Bokeh I have a few of personal interest to me! The top left picture is just a pretty picture of a prairie field that reminded me of where I live. The upper right picture is of my gorgeous real life and Second Life sister, Gillian Galicia! She’s flaunting what’s she’s got! The bottom left picture is sisterly bonding! And, last but not least, in the bottom right photo is Niles, a much loved family member who I lost in September! Rest in Peace, Niles!

The Framed Photos frame is a new release from Bokeh that comes in eight colours and has lights that turn on/off on touch. There’s also a no-lights version in each pack! This is a gorgeous way to display treasured memories!

I’ve gotten ready for a cozy evening at home here in the comfort of the Onsie from {MYNX}! There is nine patterns to choose from and they’re compatible with Maitreya, Belleza, and SLink, along with five fitmesh sizes for classic avatars!

.::WoW Skins::. has tweaked their skins and they’re incredible! I’m wearing Ayah, natural in Milk tone!

If you’ve not noticed it, the 12 Days of Savings event is on now at the Market Place and Truth Hair is participating! Ryleigh is on sale for 100L$ for the variety pack, and the sale runs until December 7!

I’m lounging on the Aristocrat Bed, RARE from a Apple Fall.

The pose is from the Grounded Two pack from oOo Studio Poses.

Tangled Up In Blue!

Tangled Up In Blue!

I know I’m not tangled up in the same blue that Bob Dylan was…but this blue an all-consuming experience just the same! The theme for July’s Collabor88 is Under the Sea and there’s all kinds of stunning aquatic items!

First off, the Serena Skirt and Top from Stories&Co.by Flowey are real beauties! The form fitting skirt shows off great legs and curves and the top is midriff baring in front, with a longer hemline at the back!

Also at Collabor88 is the Ariel hair from D!va! It comes with mesh shoulder attachments for a longer bosom covering style, or without the attachments for a short, pearl dotted look! The little grouping of aquatic goodies and pearls are colour change.

The 9-5 Vanity pack of SLink nail appliers from Hello Dave is right full of an endless selection of nail colour euphoria! With 35 different options, Hello Dave has the hugest packs I’ve ever seen!

The Jewel, Ocean skin in Amber tone is perfect for the theme of the post! It’s one of many excellent skins from Lumae.

The Nautical Shoes in black are from AURORA!

The poses are from the berry pack from Marukin and available at Collabor88.

Lighting by Lumipro.

Pictures taken at Apple Fall…home of Stories&Co.by Flowey.