What Hurts the Most

What Hurts the Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that is not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away

And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ it
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still harder, getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away

And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away

What Hurts the Most‘ ~Aaron Lewis~ written by Jeffrey Steele

Ok, so this has been a week of songs, and I have to say I’ve enjoyed matching a song to my mood and picture for each post. I’d like to continue to do that, but I’ll also continue writing, some days more than others. Oh, I still have thoughts and opinions, but there are times that I find it hard to put more than 3 words together and still make sense, so having a song do some of my talking for me is really quite a relief, but you guys have to promise to click on the link to the song and listen, because I have great taste in music(I think I do, anyway), and each song I pick is more than just a song. It represents something in me, whether now or in the past, it’s chosen for a reason. Part of me feels like I’m letting my readers down by adding a song to my posts, and I have no idea why I feel that way so strongly. I know no one expects me to have something creative and exciting to say every time, the people I know in real life sure as heck don’t expect much more from me most days than for me to nod and grunt a hello in their general direction, then be quiet for an hour while I struggle with the reality of having to be social. So, today enjoy Aaron Lewis with a tearjerker of a song, and oh….btw……just a warning…..if you’re expecting happy shiny songs……yea….you may be disappointed….rarely am I a happy and shiny type of person. 🙂

So, there’s a week left int he inaugural round of the ILLUMINATE event, so with that in mind get down there to have a look at the offerings from some of the grids most creative and imaginative home and decor stores. Galland Homes is there with the ‘Cape Hatteras Bedroom’ items. They’re all sold separately and the set includes the bookcase, small side table, and slip cover chair, which all goes perfectly with the ‘Cape Hatteras’ bed that’s available at the main store. The table, dresser and book case come in two colours to choose from and the slip cover chair has ten male and female sitting animations. The ILLUMINATE event runs until April 13.

I’ve added some home decor to make this a cozy little bedroom. The books in the bookcase are from Dutchie, as is the ‘Dutch Photo Collage’ on the wall to the left of the bookcase.

The art above the bed is ‘Marrakech’ in pastel by Silas Merlin.

The ‘Table Lamp’ on the side table on the right is from C L A Vv.

The books to the left of the chair is from Apple Fall and the books to the right are a group gift from Nutmeg.

The plant in the foreground is from Dust Bunny and the Rug is from Apt B.

I’m in one of the rooms of the ‘Tuscany Loft’ from DaD Designs. It’s one of my favourite skyboxes.

Reading Priorities

Reading Priorities

I’m not a well read person, I must admit. I love to read, but I’m very aware that my choice of books is sometimes questionable. Oh, I believe all reading is good, to immerse myself in a story and forget about reality for a time is gloriously freeing, but I know there’s a ton of literature out there that’s well worth reading. I need to open myself up to reading something that takes me to places I’ve never been. I’ve been to Stephen King’s world many many times, I’ve read about murders, in true crime and in fiction, so many times that I’m amazed it doesn’t affect me in some way. I’ve read westerns where the fast gun has been romanticized over and over again. I read romances, the bodice rippers where the endings are always happy, and I’ve read Nicholas Sparks, never managing to not cry during it. But, I have to say I don’t read enough classics! I’ve not read anything by Hans Christian Andersen or Jack London……I’ve always meant to read Louissa May Alcott, Mark Twain, and J.D Salinger, but haven’t…yet. I should discipline myself and read even one classic for every 5 general fiction books I read, then maybe I’ll consider myself well read. I guess if one considers Dr. Seuss a classic author then yes, I’m very well read, because ‘Hop on Pop’ and ‘Horton Hears a Who’ should be considered classics!

I’ve talked about reading before, so you know I love to read, but this time I mention it because KraftWork is releasing the ‘James Joyce Library’ in the March round of Deco(c)rate, and this round is sure to be a great one! The theme for March is ‘Days in Dublin’ and if the teasers are any indication this is one I’ll be getting! But back to the library, it has a land impact of 14 when in it’s entirety, which includes the books and shelving, ladder, and lights. The lights are on/off on touch and the ladder has a reading animation, which I’m not using here, as you can tell. 🙂 The set includes each part individually or as a set to rez all at once, which I did for this. The textures are highly detailed with rich colours which makes a perfectly intimate reading area. The Deco(c)rate subscription box will be delivered March 8 at noon SLT, but you only have until midnight of March 7 to subscribe! You can find a kiosk at the KraftWork main store or at the Deco(c)rate Headquarters.

I chose to settle in and read a little bit here using the ‘Double Booked’ pose and pose props from the ‘Book Lovers’ set of pose/props from Le Poppycock. The props include books, book piles and cats….every library needs at least one cat!

As for my other clutter in the library? Well, it includes books, of course! The ‘books & tea’ beside me is from tarte and the tall pile of books to my left is a group gift from Nutmeg. The ‘Sepia Peonies’ are from NOMAD and the ‘hat boxes’, ‘Hello Billy-vase’ and the ‘rug’ are from gacha sets from Apt B. The ‘Bermuda Turntable’ is from .:revival:..

And for my outfit, I’m wearing the ‘boyfriend jeans, dark wash’ and the ‘Deep V Sweater, blushed’, both from fashionably dead. The ‘Vanilla’ hair is from [monso]. And, my look all starts with the ‘Raine’ skin in ‘miel’ tone from Avada on the ‘Lilo’ bento head from Catwa and the ‘Lara’ mesh body from Maitreya.

You can also find me on my blog, What a Beautiful Mess!.

A Lifetime of Homes

A Lifetime of Homes

I’ve always been a home body, I need somewhere I can be the real me, completely at ease and protected from the big bad world out there. Well, that’s a little bit dramatic, but you know what I mean. My home is my refuge, if I don’t have somewhere that I can be completely at peace to recharge, I’m a basket case. I’m no different in Second Life. I need to have a home where I can surround myself with my belongings to make me feel all cozy. I’m partial to warm colours and wood tones, the rustic look, I guess. One of my favourite home and decor designers in SL has always been Scarlet Creative. I’ve played every Scarlet Creative gacha there is and I’ve accumulated quite a few houses, skyboxes, and the various buildings that Charlotte Bartlett has created. So when I saw her post on FaceBook back in November about a raffle to raise money for her fur baby, I always like to help out if I can. I ended up not getting there until the last day to enter, but I got a gift card to use at a later date. Needless to say, when I got an instant message from Charlotte saying I’d won the grand prize, I was shocked and unbelieving. I IM’d her back if she was kidding me and she confirmed that no…..I had won…….the big prize!! I won’t be needing my gift card now, since I’m getting EVERY release from Scarlet Creative….for life! I have a hard time comprehending that concept…..I’ve never considered leaving SL, even for a break…so I can’t see me going anywhere anytime soon, but now……..there is NO way in h*ll I’m going to be leaving Second Life. I just think of all those Scarlet Creative homes….and I smile, knowing I’m going to have a new and comfortable home for the rest of my natural Second Life! Thank you, from the bottom of my little old virtual heart, Charlotte……may you and I live long and happy virtual lives! ♥

I’ve surrounded myself with a few things from my Scarlet Creative folder, which is already bursting at the virtual seams! I’ve rezzed the ‘Tree Gazer‘ house, which has two versions, one that stays on the ground and one that rises high above the forest floor so you can look down on your own piece of earthly heaven! I’ve decorated with the ‘Hide Sofa’ and the ‘Antler Chairs’ from ‘The Foundry’ gacha set along with the ‘Daisy Bird Cage, copper’ from the ‘Daisy’ gacha set.

I’ve also chosen some of my favourite things from ..::THOR::... The ‘Boho Guitar’, ‘The Fish Bowl’, the ‘Vintage Nightstand’, the ‘Vintage Radio’, and the ‘Old Books’ and ‘Coffee Cup’ which are on the nightstand. They’re from various gacha sets, which are all incredible.

The stack of books on the floor is a group gift from Nutmeg.

Above the sofa is a large board holding photos, it’s called ‘A Series of Unfortunate Photos, dark’. It holds 9 pictures…..just drag and drop your own textures into it. It’s from .peaches..

The ‘Cardboard Box of Books’ is from a gacha by 22769~[bauwerk].

The mens and ladies runners are from the ‘Stockholm Bedroom Set’ from ~BAZAR~.

And, the two rugs are from the ‘Farm Living’ gacha set from APT B.

And as for my outfit, you ask? Well, I’m wearing the ‘ACE SPORTS SET’ from DEAD DOLLZ, thanks so much, Elle!

The ‘G1204’ hair is the newest of new releases from tram, and it’s available now at ~uber~. And, as always, my look starts with the ‘Raine’ skin in ‘miel’ tone from Avada on the ‘Lilo’ bento head from Catwa and the ‘Lara’ mesh body from Maitreya.

Last but not least, I’m using the ‘A Purrfect Read (alt)’ pose and book prop from the ‘Book Lovers’ gacha set from Le Poppycock.