What Hurts the Most

What Hurts the Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that is not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away

And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ it
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still harder, getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away

And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away

What Hurts the Most‘ ~Aaron Lewis~ written by Jeffrey Steele

Ok, so this has been a week of songs, and I have to say I’ve enjoyed matching a song to my mood and picture for each post. I’d like to continue to do that, but I’ll also continue writing, some days more than others. Oh, I still have thoughts and opinions, but there are times that I find it hard to put more than 3 words together and still make sense, so having a song do some of my talking for me is really quite a relief, but you guys have to promise to click on the link to the song and listen, because I have great taste in music(I think I do, anyway), and each song I pick is more than just a song. It represents something in me, whether now or in the past, it’s chosen for a reason. Part of me feels like I’m letting my readers down by adding a song to my posts, and I have no idea why I feel that way so strongly. I know no one expects me to have something creative and exciting to say every time, the people I know in real life sure as heck don’t expect much more from me most days than for me to nod and grunt a hello in their general direction, then be quiet for an hour while I struggle with the reality of having to be social. So, today enjoy Aaron Lewis with a tearjerker of a song, and oh….btw……just a warning…..if you’re expecting happy shiny songs……yea….you may be disappointed….rarely am I a happy and shiny type of person. 🙂

So, there’s a week left int he inaugural round of the ILLUMINATE event, so with that in mind get down there to have a look at the offerings from some of the grids most creative and imaginative home and decor stores. Galland Homes is there with the ‘Cape Hatteras Bedroom’ items. They’re all sold separately and the set includes the bookcase, small side table, and slip cover chair, which all goes perfectly with the ‘Cape Hatteras’ bed that’s available at the main store. The table, dresser and book case come in two colours to choose from and the slip cover chair has ten male and female sitting animations. The ILLUMINATE event runs until April 13.

I’ve added some home decor to make this a cozy little bedroom. The books in the bookcase are from Dutchie, as is the ‘Dutch Photo Collage’ on the wall to the left of the bookcase.

The art above the bed is ‘Marrakech’ in pastel by Silas Merlin.

The ‘Table Lamp’ on the side table on the right is from C L A Vv.

The books to the left of the chair is from Apple Fall and the books to the right are a group gift from Nutmeg.

The plant in the foreground is from Dust Bunny and the Rug is from Apt B.

I’m in one of the rooms of the ‘Tuscany Loft’ from DaD Designs. It’s one of my favourite skyboxes.

Yes….I’m Single!

Yes....I'm Single!

I’ve been single a long time and as time goes on no one really ever expects anything different of me! You know, when a woman is young, it’s always expected that she’ll find that certain someone, settle down, pop out a few pups, and live a happily(or not) ever after! Once I passed the ‘young woman’ stage people gave up saying anything about my marital status…then I was married for awhile……which didn’t end well….to say the least! So now, I’ve been single for a lot of years again, and I can’t imagine it any other way! It’s going to take a superhero to be better than my own company! I was married to an extrovert to the nth degree! A social butterfly like no one else! So I know that doesn’t really work well! I’m sure there are introverts and extroverts married all the time….but we were complete opposites, with neither seeing it from the other persons eyes! I enjoy my space, my privacy, and my alone time. I need a man who likes their own company and doesn’t expect me to go to social gatherings, but enjoys good conversation, coffee time, and loves animals and the great outdoors! And if he happens to be in Second Life…that’s OK too! But, he still has to have his own home!!

Ok….so there’s a reason why I’m talking about being single…but it’s kind of convoluted! While I was taking these shots I was looking closely at the Selene Corset and Panties from L.A. BoS and noticed the really great cobwebs on the chest! It reminded me of a time my wonderful sis commented that I’d been single so long I had cobwebs….ummm……you know where……oh never mind, you know where that was going! Anyhoo…….the corset and panties, along with the arm bracers, are available at the new round of Designer Showcase. It comes in seven standard sizes, but I’m wearing it on the Maitreya, Lara mesh body!

There’s a fairly new event that’s solely on Market Place, you may not know about! A new round of Buy Now starts at the beginning of each month and all the deals are on Market Place! Slipper Originals has the Maleficent Sandals on special until October 31! The fat pack is at a super low price and it has about a gazillion colour options! Really…a gazillion……I counted!! I love the spikes, the devil’s tail edging up my leg, and the incredible trident heel!!

If you get in close you’ll see one of the five colours in the Granny’s Damson Jam applier pack from Hello Dave! Drop in at the main store…there’s lots going on…and very worth your while!

I have this thing about crows and ravens, so anytime I see something with them I just have to get it! So it was when I saw the Mechanical Crow Necklace, in black, from Bamse!

The Jin hair is from KoKoLoReS.

I’m standing in front of a window in The Clock Loft sky box from DaD Designs.

As always, I’m wearing the Nelly 2.0 mesh head from Genesis Labs, the Lara mesh body from Maitreya, and the casual hands and high feet from SLink.

Poses by oOo Studio Poses!