Running Up That Hill

Running Up That Hill

It doesn’t hurt me.
You wanna feel how it feels?
You wanna know, know that it doesn’t hurt me?
You wanna hear about the deal I’m making?
You be running up that hill
You and me be running up that hill

And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building.
If I only could, oh…

You don’t want to hurt me,
But see how deep the bullet lies.
Unaware that I’m tearing you asunder.
There is thunder in our hearts, baby.
So much hate for the ones we love?
Tell me, we both matter, don’t we?

You, be running up that hill
You and me, be running up that hill
You and me won’t be unhappy.

And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
Be running up that building,
If I only could, oh…

‘C’mon, baby, c’mon, c’mon, darling,
Let me steal this moment from you now.
C’mon, angel, c’mon, c’mon, darling,
Let’s exchange the experience, oh…’

And if I only could,
Make a deal with God,
And get him to swap our places,
Be running up that road,
Be running up that hill,
With no problems [x2]

Running Up That Hill‘ ~Placebo~ (Kate Bush cover)

This is kind of on the darker side of my thoughts, but this song makes me really think. I’ve suffered depression and anxiety just about all my life, I actually can’t remember a time I wasn’t one or the other….or both. A lot of people think that little kids can’t really know anxiety or depression, but even as young as 6 I remember worrying and being stressed and sad. Which in itself is sad, looking back on it. So having come out on the other side of it all, for the most part, there have been times that I’ve struggled with how life turns out. I’ve been as far down as someone can be, and have managed to still be here living and breathing, and yet there are people who want to live desperately and they end up passing away much too soon. That’s when I’ve said, ‘If I could make a deal with God and get him to swap our places…’, I’d do that in a heartbeat. I’ve spent so much time in the past not wanting to live, that I felt a certain sense of guilt, when others who want to live desperately go much too soon. I think I’ve felt a kind of survivors guilt…..why am I living when so many others aren’t, and then to not find any joy or happiness in it. If you follow along with my blog, you know I still have times that I’m down, but ultimately I want to live….because I know when those times pass, there’s so much to live for…..and I know I don’t want to miss a thing!

The Peace By Peace hunt starts today, it’s from the organizers of the Peace on Earth hunt, so you know it’s going to be a good one. Elle Boutique is participating and the ‘Eden Earrings’ are the prize! It’s a full set, HUD driven with 7 metals and 14 stone and diamond colours, SL materials enabled, and resize on touch. They match the ‘Eden Ankle Bracelet’ if you want to have matching accessories, which is always nice. You can find the prize guide for the hunt here.

The ‘H0316’ hair is from tram.

I’m wearing the ‘Maddie’ skin in ‘honey’ tone from The Skinnery on the ‘Lilo’ bento head from Catwa. The ‘Sexy Smokey Eyeshadow’ is from MILA and the ‘Soma Eyes’ are from Zombie Suicide.

I’m over by the little building by the lighthouse at Isle of May here. You’ll find a nice sitting area with some companions of the canine kind there along with the boiling kettle, just waiting for you to have a cup of tea.

Profile Perv’n 2.0

Profile Perv'n 2.0

This is an update to a story I brought you earlier in the week! I’ve had it pointed out to me that I’d missed a couple topics that are popular in Second Life profiles that we all love to read. The space is there to use as one wants, there’s no rules, just say what you want to say. So, when thinking of popular topics I’d completely forgotten the ‘Family ‘profile. The one whose ‘picks’ are all their relatives in Second Life. I have nothing against this at all, only in Second Life can you pick your family!! Unlike real life where you’re stuck with whoever you’re born with and most of the time wouldn’t want to advertise to anyone who your family is. The family profiles usually have about 3 mothers, 10 sisters, and that one crazy brother..don’t forgot the crazy brother. There might be an uncle or two and of course nieces and nephews. I’ve not gathered any family members at this point, well….except for my sister, who really is my sister! And speaking of the beautiful Gillian Galicia, since my last blog post on this topic she has changed her picks to include me in a mesh version. Of all the pictures she could have picked, she showed much restraint and used one that’s fun. Thankfully! Oh, then there’s the angry profile……….the one with all the rules of what to say or not to say to this person, warnings of not to mess with them or their loved ones, and generally not making them approachable at all! Maybe that’s what they really want, no one to talk to them, but it might be easier to just leave the whole thing blank, because living with all that pent up anger must be difficult! I’ve done a bit of a revamp to my profile, so if you see me in-world I have some thought provoking quotes to read and plan to add to it as needed, because life doesn’t stand still for anyone! Just remember, that I try not to take myself too seriously, because life’s way to short for that!

I think I have a bit of an attitude here, I’ve been trying to fight off the late winter doldrums, and it’s not been easy. I’m wearing the ‘Nova Hand Chains’ from Elle Boutique(formerly Slipper Originals) here, and they’ve got a little bit of boho goin’ on! The chain wraps around the wrist then trails down to encircle the index finger, with a moon, beads, and stones along the way. They’re fitted for the SLink and Maitreya bento hands, are HUD driven with 7 metals, 10 stones and beads, and materials enabled for extra shine! These are available at the current round of 4Mesh, which I’m sorry to say is the final round, with this event coming to an end. It runs until April 11, so there’s still time to get all the goodies!

The newest release from RK Poses is one I just could not resist! It’s the ‘Katyusha Elegant Armchair’ and it’s rich textures and perfect poses make it a must have. It comes in a version with singles animations for seating and also a version with a really relaxed couples pose. Each purchase includes a gift of ‘Porcelain Cups’ from Nutmeg! The chair is available at the current round of Shiny Shabby.

I’m wearing the ‘Joelle Lingerie’ from Addams.

The ‘G1020’ hair is from tram.

My look all starts with the ‘Raine’ skin in ‘miel’ tone from Avada, on the ‘Lilo’ bento head from Catwa and the ‘Lara’ mesh body from Maitreya. My eyes are from the ‘Nissa’ set of eyes from Zombie Suicide and I’ve added a bit of eye shadow from the ‘Tiana’ eye make up set from Zibska, which was part of a previous Powder Pack box.

I know this chair is loaded with great animations, but I went for a more serene look here with the ‘Be Here Now(mirror)’ pose from BadWolf Poses.

I Have Nothing to Say!

I Have Nothing to Say!

I’ve been working on writing this post for most of the morning now, and I have yet to come up with anything worth reading. I’ve started a couple times with thoughts that are going through my head, but either they’re something I know very little about or it’s too depressing. I found out depressing isn’t good on a Saturday morning, who knew? 🙂 So, here we sit, I have no poem or song lyrics to share. I’m all out of words of wisdom and other than sipping my coffee and thinking about what to have for lunch, I have very little going on in my brain. My RL brain is a little like my Catwa brain, it’s there…..but it’s not hooked up to anything and is really of no use at all. Heck, it may as well be made invisible and I can just carry on in oblivion!

There’s a new event on the grid, and I think it’s a very promising one! The March round of The Dollhouse still has a few days left, and included in this round is the ‘Handcuffs Collar’ from !NFINITY. It comes in black, brown, or pink, and each one is HUD driven with 3 areas to customize! It’s resize on touch, 100% original mesh, and unrigged for easy fitting. Don’t let the word handcuffs bother you, they’re very tastefully done, so you don’t need to be into the lifestyle that handcuffs are most known for to wear them comfortably. No, I’m not talking about cops and robbers! 😛

I’m wearing one of my favourite hairs from [KoKoLoReS] here. It’s ‘Pepper’ and the short style is perfect for my active lifestyle! Yea….right, maybe not so active….but it is perfect! 😀

The ‘Just Love’ tattoo is one I wear frequently and always get a comment on it’s positive message and simplicity. It’s from Carol G Tattoo Wear, which you can visit at the in-world store or on Market Place.

This is a really good look at the ‘Raine’ skin in ‘miel’ tone from Avada. I’ve added one of the Face Mole options(available separately) to it, and I just love the detailing that gives it. I’ve also added one of the 15 options from the ‘Tiana Eye Make up’ set from Zibska. It’s from a previous Powder Pack, so I’m not sure if it’s available, which makes it so important to get these subscription boxes, it’s treasures like this that make them sooo worthwhile. I’m wearing the ‘Lilo’ bento head from Catwa and the ‘Lara’ mesh body from Maitreya.

My eyes are from the ‘Nissa’ set of eyes from Zombie Suicide.

This pose is called ‘Stardom’ and it’s from Del May.

Hope Springs Eternal

Hope Springs Eternal

Hope springs eternal in the human breast;
Man never Is, but always To be blest.
The soul, uneasy, and confin’d from home,
Rests and expatiates in a life to come.

‘An Essay on Man’ ~Alexander Pope~

This winter has seemed endless, but it’s actually passed in the blink of an eye! It’s still winter-like here, it’s Canada so spring doesn’t come easy, at least where I am, but the sun is shining and the high is supposed to be a balmy +1°C. How nice is that after the long cold spells we’ve had? It wasn’t any colder than lots of other winters, but each one has it’s own challenges. So far, we’ve only had a of couple major snowfalls but some fairly long periods of cold. The days are longer now and the sun has a bit of warmth to it, which gives me hope. It’s not like winter is hopeless, it’s not that bad, I just take it day by day and eventually I come out on the other side of it. This year I’m in a little bit of a panic with how close it is for spring work to begin, and I’m in no way ready for that! With only a couple weeks left in March, April is getting closer by the minute, and here I am writing a blog post, when I should be doing prep work for the coming spring! I keep putting it off, thinking I have lots of time, but if the next month goes as fast as the last one, I’m screwed! So, I guess I better get at it……..yea…..who am I kidding, there’s always tomorrow!

This is the first time taking pictures at Mystical Fae Forest, and I am so pleased with the outcome. I’m always saying how slow I am getting the shot I want, but for the first time in my blogging history, I got the shot in one take! Yes…this is the only picture I took of this outfit! Believe it….I’ve been having trouble believing it myself! 🙂

Anyway, I’m wearing the incredibly happy and spring like ‘Cary Dress’ from Just BECAUSE. It’s fitted for the Maitreya(Lara), SLink(Hourglass & Physique), and the Belleza(Isis & Freya) mesh bodies and comes in 26 colours or the fatpack which has 4 exclusive floral prints. The ribbon and panties are both colour change and the panties have an on/off toggle if you prefer to go commando! The ‘Cary Dress’ is available now at Collabor88, which runs until April 6.

The gorgeous ‘Daisies Tattoo’ is from Carol G Tattoo Wear. I don’t know about you, but there isn’t a release from Carol G that I don’t love, the detailing is incredible and they’re all so beautifully feminine! They’re compatible with the Maitreya, Belleza, SLink, and TMP mesh bodies plus anything that’s Omega compatible.

I haven’t been a blonde in at least a couple years, but I’m trying to switch it up a bit. This is the VIP gift, ‘Tinsley’ from Truth Hair.

My look all starts with the ‘Raine’ skin in ‘miel’ tone from Avada on the ‘Lilo’ bento head from Catwa and the ‘Lara’ mesh body from Maitreya. My eyes are from the ‘Nissa’ set from Zombie Suicide. I’ve added one of the 15 colours from the ‘Tiana Eye Make-up’ set from Zibska.

This is one of the 10 poses from ‘Pack 90’ from Overlow Poses.

The Shape of Things to Come

The Shape of Things to Come

Well it’s late in the hour
And a few more grains of sand will fall
On the colorful flowers
Have grown upon the dust and moss

Now I fear the worst is near
I hold them close and count their years
And pray a ray of light appears
To shine down on us here

Break down in the shape of things to come
But I’m moving on like a soldier
And I say now when all is said and done
It’s not ours to break
The shape of things to come

There’s a crack in the clouds
But only for a moment now
Like an eye looking out, in blue skies
Finds the roads we will go down

I wonder what they hold for us
I hold my family to my breast
I fear the worst and hope the best
Will come to see us blessed

Break down in the shape of things to come
But I’m moving on like a soldier
And I say now when all is said and done
It’s not ours to break
The shape of things to come

The Shape of Things to Come ~Audioslave~

I find it harder and harder to listen to the news, and I’ve always been one who keeps up on current events. But, to keep my anxiety at a manageable level and try to stay positive about life, I’ve had to cut out a lot of the news from around the world. I’m not sticking my head in the sand to avoid it all, but now I get caught up on the current affairs and then make my mind move on to something else. It can be so frustrating, completely immobilizing, and downright scary to hear of what we have become. I don’t know what it will take for things to change, but if this is the shape of things to come, I don’t want to see it.

Sorry to be a downer, I’ll just say that this is a’not enough coffee in the world’ kind of day to get me feeling alive and kicking. But, when I look at the colours of this picture that I took yesterday I feel a brightening of my mind. I just love the tones in this, it’s funny how my emotions can be swayed so easily, I’m just this blob of emotion ready to pick up vibes from something…..anything……*sighs* But, anyway……I’m wearing the ‘Sofia Turtleneck Dress’ from LEGAL INSANITY and it’s a good thing I have curves in all the right places because this really hugs them! ‘Sofia’ is Maitreya exclusive and comes in eight really pretty colours. I’ve opted for the red……so I guess you could say I’m the Lady in Red, if you must. 🙂

This tousled hair is ‘MAYU’ from Argrace.

My look all starts with the ‘Raine’ skin in ‘miel’ tone from Avada on the ‘Lilo’ bento head from Catwa and the ‘Lara’ mesh body from Maitreya. I’ve added one of the 4 options from the ‘Sexy Smokey Eyeshadow’ set from M I L A. My eyes are from the ‘Nissa Eyes’ set from Zombie Suicide.

I was going deep into my poses folder yesterday and came up with this one from the ‘Breathe Easy’ set from Le Poppycock.

I’m at Mother Road for this shot! I love the dry heat of the desert!

You can also catch me on my blog, What a Beautiful Mess!.